Life happens

Dear beautiful esteemed people,

I set out to write every day; yesterday I broke that rule... for two reasons.

1) Some rules are meant to be broken. For those of us that struggle with becoming legalistic and pretentious, it's always a good idea to break a few rules as long as they don't hurt ourselves or anyone else.

2) I had another completely nutty day at work - 12 solid hours of being on my feet. Disoriented patients, family members to reassure, doctors to negotiate with, tests to plan for, blood to hang, tube feedings to wrestle with, new admissions, the whole nine yards. Then I spent 3-4 hours on the road to visit family and destination arrival occurred at 1am my time. I actually got on the Internet to post something and realized I had absolutely nothing coherent or interesting to say.


Now that it's a new day, I can share with you the pure enjoyment of life happening. It was up in the air whether we would make this trip at all (and yes... I still travel with my parents). I am stiff, sleep-deprived, struggling not to get sick - and yes I'm am really enjoying myself. I dragged myself out of bed at 8 am... and was immediately inundated with my little people and hauled up to the lair of the attic. Barbies and Superheros were indiscriminately shoved at me. Ballet moved displayed, soccer balls thrown, Frozen music played. And then the pouting began. It's really too bad I can't clone myself (hahaha that sounds terribly vain. I don't mean it that way... it's just that my niece and nephew have infinite trouble sharing me).

I love hanging out with children. Yes, I have to "endure" hair-brushing, playacting, silly dancing, breaking up potential arguments, being dragged everywhere, getting soccer balls thrown at me... etc, but I will always be popular and accepted. Perhaps it's my size, but I think it's because children know that I am totally invested in them. It's easy to invest in people you know will not reject you. It's a mutual safety net... children know I'm safe and loving... and I know they're safe and loving. I wish the adult world was just as easy to deal with.

Anyway, welcome to life happening. This is my life. I looked at my mom today and thought... she is so beautiful. How can she be a grandma? As I drank my coffee, I soaked in my family time. I am so lucky to have a loving family. We're dysfunctional... don't get me wrong. But there's no dark secrets lurking in the basements. I have to stop stop watching criminal minds. It makes me so sad that there are people who don't have this. Someday, I hope to provide many people with a safe home like mine. I dream of the xenodochium. I'll tell you about it later. Right now, I have to get back to my littles.

Love,
Liz

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