The problem (but also benefit) to writing every day is that you get the true narrative of life which includes the days where I can't see everything positively. It's an absolutely gorgeous day. I'm staring at the sun willing myself to feel motivated and hopeful and it just isn't working. Sometimes you cannot win against your body's chemical makeup.
If you came from the Sunshine blog... I want you to be prepared. I won't necessarily be inspirational or uplifting in this blog. And that's ok... haha at least it is with me. I think it's important to be truthful in life. You may not like it or agree with it, but at least it will be an honest account of my perception. Before I go further you should know that perceptions change. It's not always like this. The most important... I repeat CRUCIAL thing for someone who struggles with any type of depression is to remember that it will not always be like this.
The key to feeling hopeless is to know that despite your feelings... there is always hope.
You cannot force yourself to feel better, but you can keep yourself from spiraling further downward. I think a lot of people make depression worse by trying to change themselves and getting frustrated with their inability to will themselves into betterness. While I am not a person that needs medications, it is important for people to know that medications are actually needed. While cognitive thinking does help, sometimes it is not enough... and I repeat, you cannot think yourself into feeling better.
I like to write in this way to allow people to know that they are not alone in their experiences, but I also like to preface it by saying it is a temporary thing.
My general feeling of the day... "what's the point?"
I'm hoping someone will give me one, or two, or perhaps a constellation of them.
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