Psyche

Good morning beautiful people,

Apparently, there was no need of me at work until 3 pm today, which is a good for the mental state, but bad for the income. As it is, I'm already part time... because crazy me... I decided to get a doctoral degree. So actually, perhaps it's not so good for the mental state because I'm half out of my mind with boredom and now worried about income. I've already done school work, so here I am gabbling away making little sense.

The human mind absolutely fascinates me. I opened my refrigerator to grab myself lunch and had a flashback to a dream last night. I dreamed that my broccoli slaw (which I've had since August) went bad. Yes. These are the things I dream about. Completely titillating I know. What we worry most about and what lies in the subconscious are very revealing. Apparently, I have a huge fear of being wasteful... or more likely it's a fear of being a disappointment.

I hold myself up both to enormously lofty standards and prolificly petty standards... probably because of my prodigious childhood existence. People often complain of being profiled as crooks, prostitutes, or lazy... but I think it can also be detrimental to be profiled as intelligent, responsible, and instrumental to "great things". You are forever haunted by people's expectations. Coupled with irrational thinking, I think this is what leads so many people down the path of suicide.

The pivotal question asked is... can you be valuable without being intelligent, responsible, and a world changer?

YES.

Yes you most certainly can. As I've stated before, we are all inherently valuable despite our behaviors, actions, even choices. But can you believe this?

It's hard than the average person takes time to consider. I watch more and more people driven to do crazy things because they think it adds to their value. It's a bit tragic. Anyway, I'm going to stop pottering about and go back to doing something more valuable (hahaha just kidding). I'm probably going to watch another episode of criminal minds and investigate more human psychology.

Liz

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