Come Awake!

Hullo darling cyberians,

I'm afraid I've been a little doomsy. It's funny. Every spring I come to the same conclusion... that I was only half awake during the winter. When the sun stretches out longer and the air smells fresher, I come alive... ROARING ALIVE. I think... how could I consider what I did over the winter living? I was functioning... breathing... but was I feeling a thing? It's not like I struggle with depression (Ok I do...) but it's not like I can identify feeling unmotivated or unhappy; it's just like I suddenly come to my senses with a lightning strike. I feel. I cry. I want to create. I ache. I dance. I want to save the world. I want to fall in love. Everything is possible. Everything is beautiful. There is hope again. It would be a bit manic if it cycled more often than with only Spring. 

I hold it close to my heart as a reminder of the resurrection I await every day, every moment.

This year though... it feels like it's been more than a year since I've felt this way. The chains have been strong. The demons fierce. They've been holding my head under water for so long. I can hardly believe what a wondrous world it is... as I come to the surface. Of course, listening to EPIC MUSIC probably doesn't help, but I'm just so happy to feel again. It's like a movie where you watch all the ropes popping off the bound person... just snapping away.

Ok well I have to go do cartwheels of joy or something... hahaha just kidding. It's midnight. I don't think my neighbors would be very happy with me.

Good night my loves.

There is enough life and hope for the world.

JESUS CHRIST FOREVER